Thursday, October 27, 2005

I'm Coming Home

Heyeeeee!! It's Thursday afternoon 1238hr here in Japan. My flight was supposed to depart at 1120hr, but was delayed to 1700hr due to a change of aircraft. Totally didn't expect such a long delay. Here I am, sitting in the Yahoo cafe at Narita airport, and using the computer for the first time in 7 weeks.

I was supposed to be ready in the dormitory lobby by 0850hr. Guess what-- I overslept!! The dormitory master called me at 0910hr and I was still in bed. Oooooops. Put on my contacts, and just rushed......

Conclusion about this Japan training: It's been a great experience. I never thought that I'm this strong both physically and psychologically. I went through a lot of things and they made me into a stronger and better person. There were times when I thought that I would just collapse and give up, but I managed to pull through with a lot of encouragement from my family and friends. A big Thanks to all of you who wrote me letters and called me to cheer me up when I was in my lowest point of mental endurance.

Now that I'm only a few hours away from Singapore, the feeling I feel is very mixed. I really loved my life in Japan- alone in the room; walking out to the nearby shops; cycling out for lunch on Sunday afternoons; watching the teen dramas at the dorm lounge on Friday nights; weekend trips to Sakura; train rides that seem so complicated.....

I should be glad that I'm going back to Singapore, the place where I've lived for 22 years, where all my family and friends are. Yet, I miss Japan. Okok, I know I'll be coming back here every week, but I won't get the chance to really live here and explore the area as much as I did. Maybe it's because it's my first time out of the country for so long and totally by myself. I had to do my own laundry, clear up my room, and just take care of myself.

My first OJT flight is next Tuesday, to Osaka. So looking forward to going there, even though I'll be doing tons of preparation work in the hotel room... For this OJT month, I think I will be doing more studying and preparation than I did during my college days. I actually made notes and tabs in my manuals, which is something I seldom do before...

I'm in the Yahoo cafe now, and there the full window view of the airport area. Airport trains, buses, planes... amazing. This is the life that I chose. I'm going to enjoy every part of it, and not have any regrets in the future. This is the promise I'm making to myself right this moment. Will I still feel the same way I do now in a year's time? I don't know. But I chose this, remember?
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Thursday, October 27, 2005