Being Happy Is A Choice

Saturday, July 30, 2005

It's Saturday evening 1850hr now. And I'm staring at the PC screen with no idea of what to surf for.

It's the last weekend of freedom, slacking and no bondage of responsibility for me before I start my 3-month training. Been meeting up with Primary School, Poly and new friends this past few days. Will be having a Sec Sch gathering next Monday. Can't help but wonder-- Where would I be now if I've not signed the contract??

If---
-I've not gone to Stansfield College after Ngee Ann, I wouldn't have met with SV, who encouraged me to apply for the job.
-I've gone to NTU after Ngee Ann when they sent me that letter telling me to apply for their courses, I might still be a part of the campus.
-I had rejected the offer to sign the contract, I would not be feeling so stressed this couple of months that led me to take that as an excuse and go clubbing.

Do I regret making that decision to sign the contract on 25 May 2005?? I don't know. But am I proud that I actually made it through all those round of interviews and medical checks? Sure I am. It's not like an examination where you just walk in to the room, take your seat, and start writing out whatever that you can remember from the school notes and texts. I have no idea what the interview questions will be like, what is the scope of the interviews, and how I would be judged. They want people who are confident, yet not aggressive; People who are proud. yet not arrogrant.

Quote: She's crying, but is she sad? She's smiling, but is she happy?

I now hold the chance to experience the dream job many females wish for so hard in their lives. It's amazing when I read through forums and see so many of them wanting to be a flight attendant, and are unsure if they can make it.

I used to leave replies like "Give it a try and see how things turn out. If I can achieve it, so can you girls." But now, I suddenly realised-- Who am I to give encouragement to them when I myself have doubts about me passing training and OJT??

Leaving the comfort of school is hard. Leaving it with a contract in your hands is harder.

A Lone Fighter stayed home at Saturday, July 30, 2005