Saturday, July 23, 2005

My Sore Throat

Sometimes I can't help but blame myself for this sorethroat. It started to brew when I was working at the NUS commencement last week. Was talking almost non-stop the whole day, either to colleagues or the customers. The situation didn't allow me as much time to rest physically or psychologically as I would have liked. The lack of liquid intake contributed to a large part, I suppose.

To make things worse, I went out for a KTV session on Saturday when I was having a fever and burning throat the night before. No one else to blame except myself.

And this Wednesday, I went for yet ANOTHER KTV session, this one from midnight till 4 something in the morning. But all I did was sit (or rather, sleep) there and listen to the girls enjoy themselves.

The result of all these--- A bad sorethroat that just won't recover and get lost. My throat doesn't hurt anymore, but my voice simply can't return. I sound hollow and sometimes no sound comes out no matter how hard I try. This is bad.

I'm going for a Primary School gathering tomorrow and I was so looking forward to it because I haven't been to one since 8 or 9 years ago. Too bad I have to make my appearance with this state of voice, or lack of it.

I'll be working on Sunday too. JR messaged me today and said that my boss, Mr. B., asked if I'm free to work on that day. For the sake of money, YES YES YES.

I've said this since I started working when I was 16-- I'll do a lot of things for the sake of money. I'm proud to say that, up till now, I've never betrayed my dignity. Yet, I've always added a clause to it-- I cannot guarantee anyone what will happen to me in the future.

I remember saying this years ago-- "I'm not a smoker now, but I can't promise you that I'll remain one forever. Mayeb life in the future will make me one, I don't know. All I know is that I'm not one now."

It's amazing how little I've changed in terms of my 'beliefs' and viewpoints I hold for myself.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Saturday, July 23, 2005