Saturday, July 30, 2005
It's Saturday evening 1850hr now. And I'm staring at the PC screen with no idea of what to surf for.It's the last weekend of freedom, slacking and no bondage of responsibility for me before I start my 3-month training. Been meeting up with Primary School, Poly and new friends this past few days. Will be having a Sec Sch gathering next Monday. Can't help but wonder-- Where would I be now if I've not signed the contract??
If---
-I've not gone to Stansfield College after Ngee Ann, I wouldn't have met with SV, who encouraged me to apply for the job.
-I've gone to NTU after Ngee Ann when they sent me that letter telling me to apply for their courses, I might still be a part of the campus.
-I had rejected the offer to sign the contract, I would not be feeling so stressed this couple of months that led me to take that as an excuse and go clubbing.
Do I regret making that decision to sign the contract on 25 May 2005?? I don't know. But am I proud that I actually made it through all those round of interviews and medical checks? Sure I am. It's not like an examination where you just walk in to the room, take your seat, and start writing out whatever that you can remember from the school notes and texts. I have no idea what the interview questions will be like, what is the scope of the interviews, and how I would be judged. They want people who are confident, yet not aggressive; People who are proud. yet not arrogrant.
Quote: She's crying, but is she sad? She's smiling, but is she happy?
I now hold the chance to experience the dream job many females wish for so hard in their lives. It's amazing when I read through forums and see so many of them wanting to be a flight attendant, and are unsure if they can make it.
I used to leave replies like "Give it a try and see how things turn out. If I can achieve it, so can you girls." But now, I suddenly realised-- Who am I to give encouragement to them when I myself have doubts about me passing training and OJT??
Leaving the comfort of school is hard. Leaving it with a contract in your hands is harder.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Saturday, July 30, 2005
Friday, July 29, 2005
Read my JAL batchgirl JM's blog and found this very interesting site www.faceanalyzer.comI tried it out with various pictures and the results turned out quite differently. Haha. Do go try it if you're free!
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Friday, July 29, 2005
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Temp Girls From Werkz and Style 2005
C, JF, XY, Me, ZX
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Thursday, July 28, 2005
Wednesday night was great. Headed out to Wheelock Place to meet with my ex-bosses and ex-colleagues for a dinner at Fish & Co. The bosses' treat, of course. Thanks to Mr. A and Mr. B!
Later, me, ZX and JR, met up with MM and LL at Shaw and got to Club Momo. It was GREAT!!! I got picked up by 3 guys withing the first 30 minutes I got inside the club. But that wasn't the main reason I took a liking to that club as compared to other clubs. The dance area was not bad, and I liked the fact that I could dance freely last night without getting stepped on my toes the whole night!! But the music was mostly trance.. And I'm not a very good shaker to trance. But JR and LL had lots of fun... They were so engrossed in their dancing that I think they missed out on quite soem guys.. Hehe.
Went off to supper after that, and were picked on by a Black ang-moh at the Kopitiam near Bencoolen Street. Errrrr. Tried all sorts of ways to let him get the idea that we're not interested in talking to him, but he just wouldn't back off. Finally, thanks to ZX, who took down his phone number and promised that we'll call, he went back to his table of friends.
Eventful yet uneventful night. Sigh. One more week to my JAL training...
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Thursday, July 28, 2005
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Woah... Don't know which one is more true--- People DO change or; People Never Change.The gathering on Saturday was great. Met up with some classmates I haven't seen in a decade. Most of the impressions I have of them in my mind are those that involve them still in the Chongfu uniform.
To all my Primary school friends, in the case you get to read my blog, Thank You all for being a big part of my childhood memories. I'll never trade them in for the world and I know they will be with me forever because no one can take them away.
Cheers to the past decade and a bigger one to the the next few!
(Oh dear.. I feel like crying...)
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Too much free time and the PC to myself. What did I do on a cloudy and cool Tuesday afternoon? I went to www.emode.com and tried out the various personality tests. Will post the results here...
Bar Personality Results
Lavine, you're a Subtle Flirt
People don't know always know what to make of you, and that's just the way you like it. When you head out for fun, you don't have to make a big scene and draw attention to yourself. Your allure and body language are enough to make people just gravitate your way.
You've got a mysterious and sensual air about you, and you probably like to scope out scenes before you become a part of one. After all, why show your cards when you know you've always got a winning hand? That's how a smooth player like you always wins the game.
Signature Color Test Results:
Lavine, your signature color is Champagne
A sophisticated soul like you is best matched with a classic color that's always tastefully chic. That's why Champagne is your perfect pairing. You're probably known for your impeccable taste in everything from clothes to music to restaurants. And it wouldn't surprise us if you also had an unparalleled ability to know just what to say or do to handle almost every situation gracefully. Don't get the idea that your simple elegance ever makes you boring: You've got a charming flavor that makes others hang on your words to the last drop — and you're not afraid to let your bubbly personality sparkle. Sure, you may get teased at times for your love of life's finer things, but you've got diplomatic skills that are likely to take you far, both in social, and professional, situations. So here's to you, Champagne. Cheers!
Celebrity Smile Style Test Results:
Lavine, your celebrity smile style is Megawatt Like Julia
We learned to love Julia for her big and bold goose-honk laugh and for her even bigger and bolder megawatt smile. Lucky you too have a gorgeous grin like America's Sweetheart. Your dazzling smile shows the world exactly what you're thinking and feeling inside, and let's people know that you are there to make a splash.
When it comes to meeting people and trying new experiences, you tend to be confident and fearless, which makes others grateful you are around. Your gutsy approach to life is as infectious as your smile. Bring it on!
Where Do I Find Love Test Results:
Lavine, you find love in a Fairy Tale
Glass slippers, traveling minstrels, knights in shining armor. These are some of the classic components of fairy tales. And when it comes to your real-life love life, you'll take 'em in the form of candy and flowers, poems describing your beauty, tiny velvet boxes, and the like. Whether you are single or settled, you're a firm believer that the fairy tale shouldn't end when someone is carried over the threshold (though that's a pretty fun part, too).
You sometimes have to work to get your head out of the clouds, but your optimistic spirit and love-conquers-all attitude helps you deal with the good and bad that life might throw your way. As long as you can spot a poison apple when it knocks on your door, you'll always be able to find your happy ending.
Why Are You Still Single? Test Results:
Lavine, you're single because you don't want to commit
Once the blush of first love wears off with your partners, do you get a little antsy? You probably crave excitement in all realms of your life, and you need a relationship to keep you filled with possibilities. Let us guess: Someone has probably told you that you haven't quite grown up yet, that you're still holding out for the perfect "whatevers" (job, car, home, date) in your life to come a knockin'. Or perhaps you're just having a difficult time accepting that your comfortable little place in this world is always growing, always evolving — and that means you have to be willing to accept big life changes, too. Not that there's anything wrong with that. After all, you're probably a lot of fun to be around and may be the life of the party.
But when it comes to settling down, you leave without looking back twice. Now's the time to ask yourself: Why? What's holding you back? Maybe you don't want someone to get to know you fully? Perhaps by saying "yes" to someone, you're afraid you'll lose yourself, or the possibility of something better coming along. Just remember that the best relationships are those that never stop growing. That's something you can identify with, right? So keep that in mind next time you find someone you're really comfortable with. You never know, it may prove even more exciting once you really get to know each other, teensy flaws and all.
The Love Test Results:
Lavine, when you're head over heels, you are an Idealistic Romantic
The rituals of romance are important to you. And for that reason, if the object of your affections doesn't appreciate the value of things like red roses and candlelight dinners, they might not hold your interest for very long. However, you're not just looking for a thoughtful date who appreciates romantic gestures. You seek a deeper emotional bond.Once you find that special love, you'll probably be the first to declare that you're head-over-heels rather than hold back you're emotions. After all, what good is being in love if you can't share it?
Love does change you. Whether it simply enhances who you already are, or makes you a completely different person, finding someone whose love personality compliments your own makes for the longest, happiest relationships.
Are You High Maintenance? Test Results:
Material Upkeep: Although you definitely appreciate a first-class lifestyle, you don't feel a constant need to indulge yourself. Sure, it's fun to spoil yourself with fancy dinners or designer clothes every once in a while, but you probably don't need everything in your life to be top of the line all the time. Congratulations! You know how to indulge yourself the right way — in moderation.
Emotional Upkeep: You like being a top priority in your partner's life, but you also respect his/her independence — good for you! Sure, it's important for you to feel valued and appreciated in your relationship, but your expectations for your significant other tend to be realistic and attainable. You definitely know how you want to be treated, but you don't think the only fulfilling relationship is one filled with constant doting.
Personal Upkeep: You definitely care about how you present yourself, but probably not enough to let your appearance dictate what you do, where you go, and who you spend time with. Sure, you take pride in your appearance, but you know that some things are more important than looks. That's a great attitude — looks like you've achieved a very healthy balance between narcissism and neglect.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Tuesday, July 26, 2005
Monday, July 25, 2005
This is bad... Maybe I really shouldn't have too much free time on my hands...I'm actually thinking of A GUY!!! My gosh... But relax.. I'm not thinking about him in the romantic way, but I feel more like I'm analysing him and his behaviour and everything I know about him.
Maybe I really have nothing better to do; maybe that guy's really interesting and worth the analysis; maybe he's the icon I have subconciously in my mind, about who and what I want to achieve.
Forget it. I better find something to keep myself occupied. I don't even have all the things I need for training, which starts next week. And yet I'm spending time and energy THINKING about another guy.
Going out for a Poly gathering later this evening. Looking forward to seeing the photos from CT's wedding.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Monday, July 25, 2005
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Came across a tarot card stall along Orchard Road on Wednesday night when we were on our way to Cineleisure for the KTV nightout. I sat down for a reading and the results are... disturbing.I asked for a reading about my career. And the first card actaully showed "The Lovers". Woah. Let me quote from The Complete Idiot's Guide to Tarot and Fortune Telling:
The Lovers card upright is about making choices in love and romance. With this card, there's always the possibility of a new romance or a new direction for the heart. The angel Raphael indicates inspiration from above, and so, love at all levels- spiritual, physical, and emotional.
This card also points toward harmony with others around you. Family and personal relations are very important to you, and you want all your relationships to be balanced and intimate. You may be trying to make choices and decisions for the highest good in your life. Or you may find new love, or the love of something new starting out in your life. The Lovers card is all about learning the ways of the heart, attraction, and the desire for cooperation.
I asked about my career and the reading tells me about my love life straight away. Maybe I'm not concentrating on my question enough; maybe subconsciously I'm thinking too much about love lately because I'm around too many goodlooking guys these few weeks. It's been such a long time since I've met with such a 'high-quality supply'. (Laugh all you want ZX... But you have to agree with me on this.)
The next 2 cards answered showed the 8 of swords and 10 of swords respectively. The reader told me that even if I get involved in a romantice situation, it's not going to last because I'm going to let go of it for my career. That's very true. I've always said that this is a really bad time period for me to be emotionally attached to a guy. Bing Bong!!
8 of Swords: Fear, Fear and More Fear
Upright Imagery and Meanings: A woman stands alone in a marshy place, with eight seords surrounding her- but notice that they don't pierce her. The woman is bound and blindfolded, and a castle in the distance may be either home or a place of future refuge.
The 8 of Swords reminds us that our fears can certainly render us helpless and put us in the very position in which the woman in the card finds herself. This can be the fear of moving out of a situation or of leaving something because we don't know what will replace it. The bondage of fear is a strong one, and when it's got you in its claws, you don't feel secure with anything new.
The 8 of Swords represents restricted action because of indecision and an inability to cope with the changes going on around you. Sometimes, this card makes you feel like you've created your own prison, or that your fears have kept you from attaining your goals.
The woman could be too weak to fight for her rights, or continuous worry may be causing her still more stress, initiating a vicious cycle of self-imposed restrictions. Unable to think clearly, the woman needs good, sensible advice.
10 of Swords: The End of a Cycle
Upright Imagery and Meanings: The 10 of Swords shows a graphic picture of a man lying in a desolate wasteland with ten swords piercing his back. He represents what war, strife, and major trauma can do to all of us: They can break us down so that we give up our will and fortitude.
This card represents the end of a cycle. This could be getting a divorce or quitting a job, but the final conclusion is at hand because there's no life left in the situation anymore. The conditions are obsolete and could lead to sudden misfortune if they don't reach their natural conclusion.
This card can indicate a deep sense of loss, which could be about a legal, worl, or social situation. This card signals the end of a karmic cycle and the end of a lifecycle the way it has been. Past obligations are now concluded so that the old lifestyle comes to a close, and the karmic debt is completed.
I can't remember the other cards after that, but they did say something about my career--- It might not a longlasting one. Maybe I'll quit after a few months... Sigh. Not sure if that's going to happen, but I certainly hope that I can stay on for as long as possible.
If my eyesight and memory didn't fail me, the last card was the Page of Pentacles.
Upright Imagery and Meanings: The Page of Pentacles brings to the forefront the need to study the pentacle before him. He loves to study and learn practical things, and is diligent about his life. The messenger of the Pentacle suit, the Page brings to us hope and the promise of good luck in the material world.
The Page of Pentacles can be a young, persevering scholar, generous and kind with all he meets. He's enthusiastic about education, progress, and the material rewards that come with them. Careful and cautious, he studies everything before making a decision.
Hmmmmmm. The reader asked at the end if I'm always attracting guys. I was like "Huh!!! Got meh?? I have average dress sense and my face is not exactly drop-dead gorgeous. And most of my friends and classmates are female; I'm not a clubbing animal thus the very low rates of meeting with new and eligible guys... hmmmm"
Still, the readings were quite accurate and it hit on many of the points that I believe. Am I going to meet with someone special soon? Well, I'll let you know if I do.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Saturday, July 23, 2005
Sometimes I can't help but blame myself for this sorethroat. It started to brew when I was working at the NUS commencement last week. Was talking almost non-stop the whole day, either to colleagues or the customers. The situation didn't allow me as much time to rest physically or psychologically as I would have liked. The lack of liquid intake contributed to a large part, I suppose.
To make things worse, I went out for a KTV session on Saturday when I was having a fever and burning throat the night before. No one else to blame except myself.
And this Wednesday, I went for yet ANOTHER KTV session, this one from midnight till 4 something in the morning. But all I did was sit (or rather, sleep) there and listen to the girls enjoy themselves.
The result of all these--- A bad sorethroat that just won't recover and get lost. My throat doesn't hurt anymore, but my voice simply can't return. I sound hollow and sometimes no sound comes out no matter how hard I try. This is bad.
I'm going for a Primary School gathering tomorrow and I was so looking forward to it because I haven't been to one since 8 or 9 years ago. Too bad I have to make my appearance with this state of voice, or lack of it.
I'll be working on Sunday too. JR messaged me today and said that my boss, Mr. B., asked if I'm free to work on that day. For the sake of money, YES YES YES.
I've said this since I started working when I was 16-- I'll do a lot of things for the sake of money. I'm proud to say that, up till now, I've never betrayed my dignity. Yet, I've always added a clause to it-- I cannot guarantee anyone what will happen to me in the future.
I remember saying this years ago-- "I'm not a smoker now, but I can't promise you that I'll remain one forever. Mayeb life in the future will make me one, I don't know. All I know is that I'm not one now."
It's amazing how little I've changed in terms of my 'beliefs' and viewpoints I hold for myself.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Saturday, July 23, 2005
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Friday-- Received a call from ZX at around 1800hr asking if I'll like to go out for a short gathering with her and her Faculty friends whom I know. Amazingly, I actually said yes and got changed almost immediately and tore my butt off my cushion and out the door. We later went over to Marina Square, found the Music Dreamer cafe and decided to laze there for the rest of the night. The music there was great and I fell in love with that place immediately. No blasting music which I don't understand, no stinking stench of smoke, and no sleazy guys trying to rub their pathetic egos against me.Saturday-- Met with ZX in the morning at Orchard and went for KLunch AGAIN. Then MM joined us for a haircut session at Yess. Decided to cut off my fringe. Didn't cut it since I went for the interviews as I thought that it will be easier to style if I am to bun up my hair. Then this week, I couldn't help but think that I need some drastic changes to my life. Can't seem to find anything to mess with other than my hair. Bing Bong! There you have it- The 'Cleopatra'/ 'chinadoll'/ Cosplay/ Nerd Lavine.
Sunday-- Very bad sorethroat, still got myself to work inspite of that pain and struggle with my croaking voice. Oops. I'm 2 minutes late. Opened the front door to see my boss sweeping the staircase... Think he looks better with his hair natural without any styling.
Monday-- Yeah!!! Working with ZX cos I'm replacing for JR. Voice still croaking, and hairstyle still looks dumb. Nvm. Boring and slow day. And a very quiet one cos I don't hear myself speak much.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Sunday, July 17, 2005
It's Sunday morning now and I'm supposed to leave for work in 10 minutes' time. Hope I won't be late today. Am sufferng from a lousy sorethroat and it makes me feel so crap. Went home last night to discover that my house don't have any Pi Pa Gao, which is the elixir for sorethroats.What to do?? Just drank lots of water, downed another Strepsils, and put an ice-cold towel on my forehead and dozed off at 2200hr. Woke up at 0130hr, went to the loo, drank even more water, and returned to my towel and bed.
Woke up at 0730hr to find myself feeling better cos the fever's lighter and I feel less crap. Opened fridge to find 2 HL milk cartons. Finished half a carton, and again lots of water, several trips to the loo to get the liquid out my body, and busy getting ready to leave for work.
Will write more when I get back. Hope my voice won't scare the hell out of my bosses later.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Sunday, July 17, 2005
Friday, July 15, 2005
It's Friday morning 0140hr now and I just got off the phone with ZX. We were talking about some stuff that happened at our respective workplaces today.Issue 1: The nice wrapping paper of the ever-happy company got torn off quite a bit and the ugly sides began showing. Open and covert arguments and displeasures among the colleagues were revealed, and us temps can't be spared as well. I admit that I got a bit attached to the company when I was working during the period of gown collection. Even then, I know that everything's too good to be true, there has to be something dark about the company...Now that the dirt is out slowly, I don't know whether to be proud about my 'prediction' coming true or to be sad that one of my fabourite companies is not as good as I thought it is.
Issue 2: The male and female species in the company are having some interesting interactions that certainly catered to a big part of our gossips. First it was Mr. A with Mr. B with Mr. G; then it's me and Mr. G; now it's Mr. B and G, where G happens to be the daughter of another colleague B. Hmmmmm. Interesting.
Issue 3: Even the temps (me included), are having cliques amongst ourselves. And there're some stuff that we try to keep from certain temps...Sigh... Office politics can happen in all shapes and sizes.
Ok, it's all so messy. And my feet, especially my toes, still have yet to fully recover from Wednesday night's clubbing at Zouk and Phuture. Will write on that in the morning when I'm feeling recharged. It's been quite a while since I've slept for more than 5 or 6 hours straight. Bonne Nuit.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Friday, July 15, 2005
Monday, July 11, 2005
Shopping and Guys on the Street
I met up with ZX and MM on Saturday, went for a Japanese buffet at Cineleisure, laughed our way through the meal, and began our shopping journey.
Sometimes I just can't help but agree that life is made up of coincidences... MM suggested that we cross the street over to Heeren from Cineleisure and walk down the stretch. Usually we'll just walk down before Ngee Ann City and Wisma Atria. We were walking beside the NYDC cafe outside Heeren when a Caucasian guy called out to us, and started asking me if I know where are the good places to go PARTY. He was with his group of friends, all of whom I thought were really not bad looking... Drool
I was like--- Errrr. Think ZX will have a better idea. I just blurted out whatever name I can recall at that moment-- Velvet Underground, Zouk, ChinaBlack, Thumper.... Errrrrrr. If you want to count that as a 'yan yu', hehe, go ahead. I'll just take it that the guys happen to talk about partying and see us walking by, and we look like we know the places to charge down to. I'm a friendly and helpful Singaporean, that's all.
We were walking at Wisma when we spotted some magazine event thing happening at Level 1. Being the ever-curious and don't-miss-out-anything girls, we made our way down to find out more. It was the Shape magazine 1st-year anniversary celebration thing. Me and ZX bought the current issue and received a very heavy goodie bag, and had our photos taken after a very nice makeover.
Anyway, my feet are soooo tired after 2 days of shopping. And my arms are aching from the heavy bags I lugged around. Ouch. Have to be prepared to stand in my heels for the next 3 days... Ouch in advanced.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Monday, July 11, 2005
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Speaking of guys--- It seems that I'm always attracting the older crowd. Be it when I was working after the O'Levels, or now.Reasons I give myself---
i) I look older than my actual age.
ii) Older guys tend to like me because I have this 'innocent' look yet not too clingy.
iii) I can take all kinds of jokes. Older guys like women who can 'let it go', so that they don't have to worry about me hanging around and causing them any further trouble.
And guess what, my 'encounters' with random guys are all those older than me, by quite a bit...
Case 1: 31 Dec 1999. Was waiting for ZX and MM to go for the millenium countdown at Taka Level 4 when a caucasian male approached me and asked if I would like to give him a New Year Kiss. ERrrrr. No Thanks. But a handshake would be nice. (I was only 16 then, barely legal!!! What was he thinking??)
Case 2: Dec 2004. I was working as a temp sales staff at the Metro Warehouse Sale at Expo. Got off work at 1800hr, walked to the Expo MRT station, took the train to Changi Airport, walked to the basement busstop. Then a guy at least 40 years old came up to me and asked if I know which bus goes to the town area. I wan't sure and directed him to the passenger service counter nearby, and walked away. He came up again and asked where I'm going. I just replied that I'm NOT going to the town area and sorry, I have to run for my bus (which is really coming). I was queuing up at the door of the bus when he came running up, presented him namecard and said "I'm not coming this direction at all. I just want to give you this and hopefully next time we can come out for a drink."
Errrrrrr. I threw his namecard away after that.
Case 3: March 2005. Was on the train from Bugis back home when this Black guy came up to sit beside me. He started off by asking for the time. Then, he began introducing himself and asked for my contact number. Errrrrrr. Sorry, but I don't think it's convenient. Bye. He got off at Dhoby Ghaut.
Am I asking too much for a guy?? Why is it that I always end up in such weird situations??
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Thursday, July 07, 2005
Wednesday, July 06, 2005
It's amazing how gossips and rumors can spread.After asking ZX for my criteria for guys on Saturday, Mr. A 'followed-up' on Monday, asking ZX again if she's talked to me about that guy Mr. G.
How can one not love the company??? We have such helpful bosses who are concerned with their temps' emotional wellbeing, and make the effort to matchmake whoever is 'single & available' around them. Hahahahhaa.
Maybe it's the way I talked, or it could have been the way I looked at them that gave Mr. A the wrong impression that I'm actually kind of interested in the guys.
Just to make it clear--- I'm Not Interested!!
To Mr. A, if you ever get to read my blog--- What gave you that idea of matchmaking??? Anyway, you got the wrong girl this time... Good luck with your next attempt. Haha. I'm sure your friend Mr. G is a great guy, but he's not for me...
Sigh..
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Wednesday, July 06, 2005
Monday, July 04, 2005
Song: From the Bottom of My Broken Heart
"Never look back," we said
How was I to know I'd miss you so?
Loneliness up ahead
Emptiness behind Where do I go?
And you didn't hear
All my joy through my tears
All my hopes through my fears
Did you know? Still I miss you somehow
From the bottom of my broken heart
There's just a thing or two I'd like you to know
You were my first love, You were my true love
From the first kisses to the very last rose
From the bottom of my broken heart
Even though time may find me somebody new
You were my real love, I never knew love
'Til there was you
From the bottom of my broken heart
"Baby," I said, "Please stay
Give our love a chance for one more day"
We could have worked things out
Taking time is what love's all about
But you put a dart
Through my dreams Through my heart
And I'm back where I started again
Never thought it would end
You promised youself
But to somebody else
And you made it so perfectly clear
Still I wish you were here
" Never look back" we said How was I to know I'd miss you so?
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Monday, July 04, 2005
Me and another colleague JR were helped to bring some stuff back to the studio from NUS on Saturday afternoon. I really liked the layout of the office. I've had an attachment program in Poly Yr 3 at a travel agency 2 streets away. The 2 offices were soooo different. The travel agency had a very 'solid' and dull layout with rather standard colors. And when I reached there early every morning, I had to be extra careful in walking up the narrow stairs cos there's no lighting there in the stairway!!! The windows they have at the top of the stairs are SOLID WOODEN ones. So the earliest one (usually me) there each morning have to open them to let sunlight in.
Ok, back to the story--- Waited for ZX to return to the office and went out to dinner at Ding Tai Feng at Paragon with her and MM. Chatted quite a lot of stuff, mostly about the temp job and our bosses. Haha. Apparently-- one of the bosses, Mr. A, who drove ZX from NUS to SMU earlier that morning, asked her what's my criteria for guys.
Nice question... If you know me since the days when I met my ex YQ, you'll know that my criteria can be quite..... errrrr..... weird.
After I broke up with YQ, I set down 3 most important rules:
i) I'll never go out with my ex's friends.
ii) I'll never go out with my friends' ex.
iii) I'll never go out with any guy who is married/engaged/attached/in a serious crush with another girl/in some sort of relationship.
But I guess, there's a hidden rule as well-- I'll prefer not to go out with a guy that's too handsome or rich.
When I met YQ at a school concert in 1998, he was everything I could have asked for. He's the friend of my galfriend's bf; he's super intelligent (he's a member of the MENSA), super rich (he lived in a bungalow, later at a condo at Bt Timah), super talented (he can play the piano, tennis, and goes yatching), super handsome (in my opinion).
At that time, I was---"Wah..... bingo!!!! He's sooooooo good. I'm going to go out with him." But being the ignorant and super-dreamy Sec 3 student I was, I didn't realise what lies beneath all that. I knew it from the start that our r/ship won't be a lasting one. I planned for the breakup as I plan for the start.. Hahah. Ironic, I know. But I just wanted to try and experience-- what it feels like to have a bf by my side. Part of it was due to peer pressure and part of it was that I didn't want to give up such a great guy. Anyway, I initiated the breakup 1 and a half months after we started our r/ship. It wasn't exactly very painful... Cos I knew right from the start that this day would come.
Since then, I've enjoyed my happy and carefree single bachelorette life. So if any one is to ask me for my criteria when it comes to choosing a bf--- I suppose my answer will be "Some guy not too rich or handsome". Hard to believe that a girl would actually give up a guy with such good qualities rite.... But the stress and pressure of not matching up to him is enormous... Really. Unless I feel completely comfortable with him and vice versa, I'll rather remain single than have a bf that's of such high standards.
That's one most important lesson I learnt from my last and only r/ship.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Monday, July 04, 2005
I finished my NUS commencement temp job on Saturday. I'm happy to say it's my best ever temp job.
My bosses and the colleagues I work with are great, really. Within that one week, my bosses (2 of them) have never shown any moment or slight indication of impatience or annoyance with me. Still, I can't help but have the feeling that it's all too good to be true-- They're always friendly, doing things themselves, not reminding me to be more aggressive in my work, caring about temp's welfare... all these are just simply tooooooo good to be true.
My favourite boss so far? It has to be the manager I worked with when I joined Coca in Dec 1999. It was my first ever job. I've just finished my O'levels studies and exams and was waiting for admittance to Ngee Ann Poly. It seemed so 'compulsory' and natural that I should find a job to make some money in that 6 months. I was window shopping aimlessly with ZX and MM in Takashimaya when we saw the "Full Time Staff Needed" notice pasted on Coca's front entrance.
Went in for interview with the assistant manager and got the job straightaway, started work the next morning. I was completely fresh out of Sec Sch and I knew nothing except studying. Started learning the basics of F&B service from scratch, and along the way, met with tons of problems and setbacks. Before that, I'm quite proud of the fact that I studied in a top school, achieved some things that others my own age will never get. To put it in the barest term--- I was the arrogant, proud, think-she-know-it-all kid.
But in the work environment, all that I thought were important and sooooo intelligent parts were useless. People (colleagues and customers) don't care if you're from Nanyang or even Princeton. They just see you as a service staff that's supposed to be helpful and adding value to the job.
My manager was an ex-SIA flight attendant and he's been there for over a decade. He has tons of experice and knowledge in F&B service to share and impart.
Reasons why I really enjoyed working with him--
i) He's fair. He'll lecture the staff if they make a serious mistake, regardless if they're a senior captain or a trainee.
ii) He cares about our welfare. He's the one that told me--- If I feel so stressed and frustrated when serving the customers, go off to the office or empty VIP room, take deep breaths and allow myself to relax first before returning.
iii) He closes one eye when we're late. Once, I was so late for my 12 noon shift (I reached around 1255hr), lied that I copied my shift timetable wrongly, oooops. I'm sure he knows that I overslept, but he just said "it's ok lah. just take it that your shift starts at 1300hr."
iv) He has my respect.
Since then, I've worked with several managers and bosses in my vast holiday job history. Still, he's my favourite and most-respected boss.
My NUS temp job bosses?? They come in a close second. Maybe I have such high praises for them because I've only worked for a week with them. Perhaps it's better this way--- I get to keep all the wonderful memories I have with their company.
A Lone Fighter stayed home at Monday, July 04, 2005